Howdy, I am Alex Ness. Technically I think it is B. Alexander Ness since I've gone by Alex since marriage around 1988. My wife gave me the courage, since, over the years I had despised my first name, didn't identify with it, and people mocked it, I chose Alex since my grandfather was Alexander Hamiliton Wells. I was named for him.
I am writing because I have other blogs to focus, and needed one to speak to my life and outlooks. But my outlooks can certainly be found in my poetry. And my views on culture can be seen in what media I prefer. My poetry is 6000 deep in entries. My Poplitiko blog inherited a
life from Popthought a site hacked by Chinese hackers in 2008. It
focused on popular media.
Adopted at birth, due to horrific circumstances. I am straight in orientation, male in gender, ethnic Viking, with Slovene traces, Greek, Polish traces, and Novgorodian Russian and Balt for the rest. I was content not knowing my ethnic percentages but my wife's outlook was aimed at becoming able to name ancestors. I find too much focus upon the origins appears to be racial preference, and even more, it might become idolatry. I am composed of flesh that neutral of politics and beliefs, and my racial origins are mental information, and perhaps misled.
In other words, My adoptive mother was a 100% pure German, as were most of the family she came from. But that was full of information and views that were far less specific after a point, and as she was able to speak some Yiddish, it has a question mark for me.
My biological past for my adopted life suggested German, Swedish and 25% undetermined. But I had some experiences healthwise that suggested Jewish, and the biological records speak to a likely Jewish link. But in 2017 my entry upon ancestry shows: No Austrian or German, Slovenian and Western Polish both are often seen as being Germanic. For about 4%. I have Swedish in me around 50%. 35% Norwegian, 1% Danish, and 1% Finn. The truth here is that my beautiful, bright, genius, wife perceived something in meeting my birth family, that she thought my ethnicity was considerably different. In University was asked if I was part Japanese. Those questioning were both Japanese themselves. So, really, my DNA background is DNA hash, with tragedy in the past. I was implanted in my mother's womb, through rape, and said to be rape with numerous male participants. So, the concept of my having a distant father who might claim me, was a fantasy believed in people who couldn't accept my original beginnings.
I am a Christian, but not Catholic or Protestant. Politically I am just like that as I vote 3rd party mostly all. But I've become determined to only vote for local elections, since I believe the typical 2 parties, Democrat and GOP are two sides of the very same coin. I am an American, adopted, born in the early 1960s, and I grew up in Wisconsin, despite being born in Minnesota.
We attended a Methodist church growing up, but I liked the structure of Lutheranism, all the while I had some mutual respect for the rituals of Catholicism. I think Protestantism is a disease, no, not the churches, but the constant disagreements leading to a new church and division, almost made a lie of the words of Christ and early leaders. Deal with division within, and fix things from the inside, and make the whole body stronger, and more united. That is, we are different, but every time we get the Hell out of a relationship due to differences, it makes life more isolated. I differ from other Christians in many ways. I think God is perfect, therefore he doesn't create people that the "He" hates. I think if people live morally, God will love them in return.
Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, Intersex, in orientation are often called sinful. I think sin is an active behavior. Therefore, existence is not, in itself, sinful. If I am attracted to men, but kill them, that would make me sinful. The attraction is nothing but a distraction. However, what people read in the Bible says one should not sleep with a woman as one does with a man. I realize it is out of the range of thought for many to make such a comment. But I see it as behavior and not being. And therefore, I see the verse is being about sexual opportunism. If one likes adult males, and there are no males so they choose others, it is acting outside of their being.
At a time when it is supposedly easier to connect, we have split into so many small versions of family or group. By beliefs, by hates, by thoughts, by ignorance... and for me, all I ever wanted was friends I could learn from. My life has fallen from grace so often, I am trying to just learn to survive. And the friends I have who are real friends, they are all there because somehow they find in me enough to give them hope for more, and I find in them grace, knowledge, love, and hope. Glenn Gregg and Pat Wingo in grade school. Sharon Hildebrandt was the girl I chased during my brother's little league games. I never caught her but I wouldn't have anything to do if I did, for years she was my perception of beauty. Then Todd, Todd, and Brendan taught me about how to rise above the empty life I was living. I learned how to be a seeker of knowledge. I was bright but unsophisticated. They helped me find reasons to grow intelligent. Theresa Meier was my sought glorious beauty. She was smart, we liked the same music, and we were actual friends. Never saw her since graduation.
I attended a number of colleges, then joined the Air Force. I meant by doing such to pay for the rest of my education. They found past mental illness and ongoing depression to be reasons to separate me from service. It was my attempt to overcome, and it failed, ingloriously.
I graduated first from University Minnesota-Duluth, with degrees in History and Political Science, and near degrees in both Journalism and English but aimed at Poetry. Ancient History and Asia formed my areas of interest, but rather than focus on one area, when in graduate school at NDSU in Fargo, ND, I expanded my areas of study. Ancient Rome and Greece have always been of interest to me, as well as Japan and Asia, but my desire to understand the world outside of my homeland, led me to dig deep in Russian history. My adoptive brother read all the time, and with him I imitated his life activity lessons, and evoked his actions by reading my first book 30 Seconds over Tokyo. I collect many books, mostly about history, poetry, military events, political memoirs, at one time from all sorts of different brands of politics. It ended when I read one by a former president who lied, or was a propagandist for a view that is historically and absolutely wrong.
My taste in music is relatively open. And I will explore this more soon.
I realize that my views might disappoint some people, after writing online for 25 years, I haven't truly spoken about my political views. I spoke about politics, but never from my own outlooks. It came from a life view formed by vastly different male influences, with a father two steps left of Ted Kennedy, and a number of father figures who mentored me, from center right outlooks. My father in law was a CEO so, his assumption of my views were that I was what my adoptive father believed, but I am left in only about health care. I am centrist most in every other fashion. I have no trust in the rehabilitative promises of the left oriented US justice system. I believe that 20 or 30 year sentences for murder, serial rape, child murder, child rape, and so much more is a joke. I've been told that I am left in my outlooks, but it doesn't move me to have anti rich or anti inheritance. I think the more and longer people are given benefits the longer we believe we are due them.
My sole illustration features a mass escape attempt, for the Gladiators, they seek to be freed, and by so fleeing their imprisonment and attain their freedom. I do too, but have nothing like their courage to do so.
